Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Provision

Ryan and I have learned a lot about God's faithfulness and provisions in the six and a half years we've been married.

One of the things we have come to recognize, but not fully understand -
is "God Math."

"God Math" is simple.
It's unexplainable.
It's when the numbers in your account--don't match.
When there's more then there should be.
 Or JUST enough to make it, when there should be a huge negative in the red.
 It's God Math.

Or at least that's what we refer to it as.
Giving God all of the credit, because that is who deserves it.

I have to tell you though, despite how many times God Math has happened in our times of financial hardship.
Being in hardship NEVER gets easier.
Even though time and time agin HE has proven himself more than faithful, we still doubt.
I doubt.

In this most recent journey, "God Math" has happened probably too many times to count.
God has taken care of, provided for, and supplied our needs time and time again in the past few months.
He is so good.
So aware of what we need, exactly when we've needed it.

It's pretty amazing to serve a God who care's so much.
When you doubt if God is really there,
it's the last bill getting paid to the cent, that shows HE very much knows.

I am thankful to say that the time hardship has passed for now.
Ryan's job has been a HUGE provision, again just in time.
And while we are still very much catching up,
I am so thankful that burden has been lifted.

Provision is a beautiful thing.
God Math is God's way of reminding us HE will see us through.

I don't know why I worry.
One way or another, God provides.
Always.
May I never become numb to the subtle (but HUGE) ways God reminds me that he is very much near to us.